I stopped the Progesterone this past Monday. So, it's been 6 days. I still feel awful. I have crashed. I feel an intense depression. Plus, my sleep is crazed. I feel like I dream all night and if it's not that, I have songs running through my head even as I am trying to sleep. No energy. Bathing is actually an issue. Today is Mother's Day and I will not be seeing my mom today. I have been too sick for almost anyone or anything. We had a huge fight on Friday. I am not well enough to be talking to her as she has dementia and can't seem to grasp how sick I am right now. No one can. She said to me, "I don't think we should talk anymore." I felt sadness and relief. She wants to hear a happy, energetic daughter. She said that all that we talk about is my illness. Yes, because I am quite sick and because she is so old, she doesn't get out and has nothing to really talk about herself. It's all up to me to bring the rainbow. I am under water. Plus, I have had two days of horrible allergies. Food allergies that have made me so sick. I am not even sure what I ate that has done this kind of damage. My whole system is a mess. It's completely upside down. I should mention I also give myself shots of magnesium and taurine in my tush. I have not felt like they are harming me, but who knows. They help my pain, but maybe they are doing something to my brain. Not sure. Also, just looked up proper dose of progesterone. I was on 90 mg, too high, but my doc wants me now on 50 mg. Everywhere I am reading, it says a perimenopausal woman should be on 20 mg and no more than 30 mg unless you are severe. So, even what my doc wants me on is too high. I just spent $35.00 on this. This is so confusing and nuts. ********UPDATE******** I spoke to my doctor and he wants me to go on 10 mg of pregnenolone. he says it should help to calm things down. Will have saliva test during next cycle. He is so hard tor reach but took an emergency phone call on Mother's Day. I feel like I have no help with hormones, which is why I never want to do this. Regular GYN's that I have seen do not believe in progesterone cream and want to put me on Depo Provera and then ND's you can't reach or they don't get back to you. Hormones are like dealing with a needle in a haystack. For well people, it is fine to mess up their hormones a tad, they will go back to normal. For us, it can cause such a downfall. It's a no win situation.