I personally dont agree with that statement that it didnt do anything for her. Her last moments if she truely was ready to stop living, were probably ones of relief knowing she wasnt going to have to be dealing with this no more. Knowing she wouldnt have to be finding the energy to keep fighting this day by day, year by year. Her death probably didnt help you (Im sorry for your loss), but may of actually helped her. I hope she passed in some peace with also knowing that you werent going to allow her to just be forgotten. Due to that I personally think her knowing you wouldnt allow her to just "vanish" , knowing that someone would probably share her story, would of eased some of the emotional pain she would of felt on passing. I carry the same wish of not being forgotten if this illness ever gets the better of me and someone doing what you did for her... so thou I dont know her, would like to say thank you to you for her. Sounds like you were such a great friend. It would be great if her story went very public... a great highlight of what many face with doctors etc. Some GPs have refused too to take me on on that ground of having too much wrong so they dont want to be dealing with me .. while another doctor declared there was "nothing at all wrong with you". Its truely an irronic situation out there.