@Hanna, I'm sorry to hear that. You can get that back, I firmly believe that now. If you can read Last Best Cure I highly recommend it. Written by a science journalist with 17 different chronic, severe autoimmune conditions who spent a year exploring the mind-body connection and adopting the practices that had the most hard science behind their ability to shift the body from a sympathetic fight or flight overactivation to a more balanced, less inflammatory state.
She experienced huge improvements in her symptoms.
If you like, msg me and I will email you a copy of the Reverse Therapy book. It makes the case for how constant rest is detrimental and what the body is really wanting from us. RT has about an 80 percent success rate, though that is skewed a bit because people who try it are already open to making changes in their psyche and open to being more connected with the messages from the non-brain parts of our nervous system.