Thanks Lou. I appreciate that. I hope you get some resolve...all of us need resolve! Peggy-Sue, I don't know why people want "mini me's." I was actually considering writing a blog about how wrong it is to have a child in your 40's. It's not fair to the child. Unless you are Halle Berry and are loaded. Everyone is doing it. Having kids late in life. It's one thing if the child has siblings that are around the same age. That makes sense. But, if you are 40, just got married and decided to push out a kid just because you want a kid...think about the kid. I grew up basically an only child. Let me tell you, it was not a lot of fun and I have never had an easy time being around a lot of people. I like space, I like being alone because of having had to be alone and it's harder to relate to others when you have parents that are older and doting on you as a child. I was always super sensitive. I have so many friends that have kids when they are in their 40's. Like 2 years old and I think....really? Do you think your kid is going to love it when you get sick in another 20 years and leave them possibly?? And, the child will be in their early 20's. Since I was 17, my Dad died and then my mom became an alcoholic so I basically took care of my mom when I was in my 20's. Plus, I love her dearly, but she needed me too much and yet was pissed that I was sick. Then she had a major heart attack and when I was 28, I had to move home to take care of her because she had triple bypass and I still take care of her. I am the only one who does. It's a weight. And while I have been sick. She has COPD, emphysema, an aneurysm. UGH. My siblings expected it because I was still single and they were married with kids. And, when she dies, I will be the one cleaning out her place and dealing with the estate. Sad. Sad to think about. I will miss her terribly, but I sometimes wonder if I will feel relief which I feel horrible saying. Now, with my limited energy, I have to be her memory because she can't keep anything straight. It's EXHAUSTING. I actually said to my mom recently, "I would never do what you did. I would never have a child in my 40's. It's totally not fair to the child." On her and my father's behalf, she really didn't mean to get pregnant. I was an "oops."