I am truly gutted! I have been ill with ME for 4 years. Within that time I have been fighting to get ill health retirement from my job as a police officer before they force me to resign. Today I have been told that I have lost that fight as I can not prove that ME is permanent. My request for a career break has been refused and I will be taken to stage 3 of UPP procedures in 2 weeks time. Its at that meeting that they will force me to resign. I will not get my pension that I need to survive financially and I just want to cry. They have never believed I am ill and I have been treated appallingly. I just don't know what to I can do!!