I wasn't quite sure where to put this post but the spirituality forum seemed like the best place. Today was very hard for me and I have been crying all day and felt incredible guilt at all that I am putting my husband and family through due to my illness and my body failing me. My husband and I got into a fight about all this but ultimately he said something very helpful that I want to try to meditate on. He said that my core values of being kind, gentle, vulnerable, yet also courageous and strong were still there and that this was my "true soul" or "true self" and not the illness. I often feel like the illness and fear consumes me and this was a good reminder. I wanted to share it in case it helped anyone else.