i know im being stupid but having this implant is upsetting me a great deal and i believe may be causing me intense waves of anger and i NEED to get it out (right now my trust in doctors is NIL). Is there any doctors or medical people at this site who can tell me somethings 1/ Would this implant be a hard thing?? or would it have gone soft after being in my body for a couple of days?? 2/ What depth are these usually put within the abdomen in?? 3/ How do doctors go about taking these things out??? How do they find them??? (ive been searching online for info and cant find it). please please please someone give me the info to take it out (i just dont trust doctors after everything ive been throu with everything). Ive tried to squeeze the thing out.. ive dug at the thing got it bleeding.. cant get it out.. need info on depth and exactly what im looking for (i read that they are the size of a rice grain). Its triggering my Aspergers and BPD off, upsetting me (the anger feel is different, something which is rare for me to feel, hence im blaming the implant) as im upset as doctor didnt listen to me about it and she just went ahead and didnt give me the info. Im feeling so desperate to get it out that im likely to end up taking a razor blade to myself crazily if i dont find a way to get this out myself in a controlled way. i WANT and NEED this implant out.