Okay, so I have put off doing this for a long time and as many know started doing it a few weeks ago just by taking what I thought was a B12 vitamin. Well, it had folate in it. I realized it brought me back to life, but as time went on, I became manic like with mood swings. I cursed like a sailor...music came back on in my household. I have posted about it on here and got some good advice, etc. Here's my problem. I am not cognitively capable of learning all of this. The SNP's, the everything. I feel completely overwhelmed by it. I received my HydroxyB12 today...doing it separately, like was suggested to me and I took it. I felt clear this AM when I took it. It was like a miracle. As the day has worn on, I am exhausted and now anxious. I am taking a small dose. I want to take more...to revive me. My anxiety stems from physiological stuff and the fact that I really have no idea how much to take. I don't like messing around or guessing because that puts me in anxiety mode. Why? I have noticed that overmethylating can make me so sick. I develop intense pain. Here are my thoughts. I am not like I said, as cognitively with it as many on here. I don't understand a lot of this. I am thinking I may need a specialist, or someone to consult. What are your thoughts on this? They may not know exact amounts of what I need either. For example, a guy I consulted with 2 years ago said I needed 1,000 mcg a day. That is pretty high. I am just so nervous I will make a mistake that could put me in worse pain or leaving me feeling nuts, as many on here sometimes feel. I took about 125 mcg today. I am wondering if I should take it tomorrow, or skip it. I just don't know and I know no one here can be my doctor or hold my hand. The closest person to me is Sean Bean. He is from the MTHFR support. he charges $350 an hour. I can't afford that. It's just too much. Plus, I know people who go to him and are dissatisfied. He doesn't get back to people when they have a question and he is autistic or has aspergers and a lot of people say he is a little bit cold. I am not sure of whether to plow through with this on my own, or find someone..but the cost of these consults and Sean who is just a nutritionist, it's kind of crazy expensive. I remember years ago taking B12 and getting B12 shots every week, but I am not 20 anymore and things are not the same. I could handle them then...I was young into this disease. My cognitive abilities for years were great...but not anymore. I react to things differently now. I also believe that since I had my surgery in January, I totally depleted B12. I know that is the case. That was major stress and 3 hours of anesthesia.