So I am on day three of a major crash. I am not sure what brought it on and I haven't really had one this bad in about 2 years or so. Not only is it devastating physically but it seems to even be worse for me emotionally. I have been crying buckets of tears over this because I honestly have no clue why this has happened and I have no way of really preventing them...It happened after a 4th of July cookout...but maybe would have come on anyway. I started up on cortef in the hopes it would relieve some of the horrible draining exhaustion but it really hasn't done anything...but maybe make me feel even worse? I am trying to be positive in that it will pass and I will be back to baseline at some point but then again I start thinking this is too much to handle and I want out.. I start thinking of ways to end this suffering .I have a wonderful loving husband who gives me 100 percent support but then I think what if I didn't have him...what would happen to me and then all these horrible thoughts start swirling around. I have so much to look forward to...a new life here in NC....becoming a first time grandmother in September...living near my son so I can watch my granddaughter grow up...but still the emotional pain I feel when I crash is almost unbearable. Believe me I know I am better off than many people on this forum and I am thankful for that...I don't want to sound like I am ungrateful for what I can do. I really don't have any doctor here to give me any support as she said to me at my last visit "hopefully someone can figure out what is going on with your fatigue". Apparently it isn't going to be her.... What do you all do to stay positive to get through these "crash" periods....I am at a loss.