I am not sure anymore about posting. I feel like all I do is come on here and post about how horrible I am. I have never been to where I am right now. Barely holding on and barely getting out. I can't even tell you how long it's been since I have been to a store. Not a grocery store, but a store. A Target, a mall, an anything. I continue to feel like I am spiraling downward. I don't know how much further down I can go. I am at the bottom. I was 11 days late for my period and the hell it brought with it I will never forget. I had an occipital migraine. The back of my neck felt like it had a knife in it, or like I was being struck by lightening. I couldn't turn my neck and it ran up over my ear and to the front of my head. I have been in bed for about 8 days now. When I finally got my period, the migraine dissipated but the neck pain did not. I have stopped sleeping, stopped eating, stopped functioning completely. I thought, it's the period, which is always a nightmare for me, it will go away. But as time goes by, the neck has hurt worse and worse and is now down into my sciatic nerve. I don't understand. I can't deal with all of these symptoms. This merry go round of one thing to another. I am having night sweats, hot flashes and I become freezing. I can't sleep at all. After another night of no sleep and the neck in agony, I had to go on prednisone to calm down all of my symptoms. I have gastritis, reflux, knees hurting, legs hurting, everything is hurting and the neck and arm along with sciatica. I can barely walk. All of a sudden, I am itching all over, too and reacting to so many foods. The levy has broken. I went to the neck doc (orthopedic doc) who assured me I will not have to have surgery. I have a deteriorating disc in C5 C6. I am to have an MRI and have a cortisone shot. I have not had neck pain in awhile. This just came on out of nowhere...with the migraine before period. These periods will be the end of me. The prednisone is making my heart race. I am too ill for words, but many of you know this feeling. I don't know what to do about these periods. They are making me so sick and bringing on a barage of symptoms that are more disabling then anything I have ever known. One of the worst problems is, is that my friends have fallen away since I had surgery. They are gone. I have continued to decline and they have a million answers. Read this book, take colloidal silver, try this, do that. I can't read. I can't pay attention. I am too ill. I can stare at a TV screen. I can look at pictures. I can't laugh. Not now. I am too tired. Or, they just can't handle what is going on with me, because honestly, there is too much. I can't handle it, why or how can they. Anyway, there is nothing anyone can say. I just need to write this down. To let it out. My mom told me the other day that I am draining. Yes. That since I had the surgery, I have been draining. I guess I am. I am to be on prednisone for 2 weeks. I have to stop all supplements and everything. I am too sick to assess.