Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. The only person that I now ever believe really understands my needs, or my pains, or my sense of despair from the rejection by physicians, co-workers, family, churches is Christ Jesus alone. He is the only one that is true, bears all the pain, protects, provides, and brings new hope. Have had a boss that accused me of substance abuse (after many many years of faithful service) and mandated that I seek psychiatric help, practically every physician I have ever visited has accused me of psychological issues as well as laziness, my family heaps abuse and ridicule on me for being sick all the time, friends abandoned me, relationships disappeared as if I never existed, coworkers turned on me, once finding a MD that understood, his well-meaning medical help made my condition even worse. Accusations, scorn, ridicule, rejection were everywhere I turned, except the church. grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;to be understood, as to understand;to be loved, as to love. The churches I have been a member never understood what I was going through, but they did not totally reject me like almost every other element of society has. What more or less amazes me as a newcomer to this board, is how much faith is placed in modern medicine, when modern medicine by and large heaps ridicule, scorn, accusations, and rejection upon us, and is most often the precise cause of this malady.