Hi, I am 41, mother of 3. I have posted before about feeling suicidal. I don't feel that way now but I feel like I have hit a wall in terms of searching for answers. I went thru a phase of saying...when they find treatment, I will do a,b and c. But now, I have stopped. Is there hope of effective treatments in the next decade? I am starting to think it will be a minimum of a decade. Aside from rituximab. Am I facing a life sentence with this disease? Is that what I need to accept. Should I stop hoping and get real? Interested in what u all think?