I am so sorry, jimells for all hat you are going through. I really hope you finally get your disability decision and can find a way to make it financially. My decision took 3 1/2 years and I thought that was a long time but 5 years is absolutely horrible! Forbearance and jimells, I fear I was a little misleading in that I didn't explain better. Some of my family would visit me but I have been too sick for years to tolerate any company at all. Even phone conversations are too much for me. Plus my Mom is ancient and lives in an assisted care facility. She badly wants to see me but can't. It breaks my heart to know that she has to live with he knowledge that she will never see her daughter again, just as I will never see her again. My one sister does drive 3 hours to see me, but she can only stay for about 30 minutes. She does it a couple of times a year anyway. So I do have more emotional support than so many others. But other members of my family don't understand or believe how sick I am so I understand that pain, too. I just learned that my 10 year old niece doesn't remember me and her older brother just unfriended me on Facebook. That hurts. I feel as if I am slowly being erased. Anyway...I wish the best to all of you whose lives have been interrupted by this horrible condition. It helps to know that others understand but it also pains me to know that others are as sick as I! Oh, and Ahimsa, I really want that pi pie. It looks deliciously nerdy.