Exhaustion overwhelming

[Catjbro]

do u guys find the exhaustion physical, mental, emotional and spiritual? I can't believe how overwhelming it is. It's like I'm not in this world. I can't cry but the depth of emotional exhaustion is beyond words. How do you cope when you feel like this?

 

[justy]

I don't know how I cope, but somehow I do and im sure you will too. Sorry its so tough right now. The irony is that if I do cry it causes severe PEM so I try and avoid it at all costs - which makes me want to cry...

 

[taniaaust1]

Yes its exhausting on every level, I'm so exhausted I don't even carry out my spiritual practices that I feel I should and would like to be doing... and at times are too exhausted to cry as justy said, it can cause PEM, at which point get so I'm more like a zombie or completely shut down.

coping, I cope cause there is no choice but to cope thou I do think Ive had a few moment of craziness due to not coping well at all eg one time I went to set myself alight to remove myself from this place due to not being able to cope.

 

[Catjbro]

That's how i feel completely shut down. And I think what's the point in living like this when there is no joy. I can't remember the last time I felt happy, or even content. Just exhaustion pain or anxiety.sorry to be so negative

 

[ahmo]

My bed is in a corner. I lie down on my bed, w/ a book. Maybe I read, maybe I drift. Everything about life is exhausting, including watching people, eg in films, doing normal things. I find that the essence of mindfulness, being in this moment, rather than the past or future, relieves the feelings of desperation. I've had to work at building a *spiritual* scaffolding, a way of looking at the world, that brings me back from the brink of wanting escape. Music helps. Joy becomes something different from what it was when I was well.

Sorry for such a clumsy expression, sorry for your current situation. And I've been amazed, over and over again, when desperate feelings disappeared, with enough sleep, or the correct nutrients, or some small thing.

 

[Catjbro]

My bed is in a corner. I lie down on my bed, w/ a book. Maybe I read, maybe I drift. Everything about life is exhausting, including watching people, eg in films, doing normal things. I find that the essence of mindfulness, being in this moment, rather than the past or future, relieves the feelings of desperation. I've had to work at building a *spiritual* scaffolding, a way of looking at the world, that brings me back from the brink of wanting escape. Music helps. Joy becomes something different from what it was when I was well.

I would be interested to know how you built the spiritual scaffolding. I find being in the moment nothingness right now - maybe it's the exhaustion but I lay and try and listen or look about the room and there is just a nothingness - it's hard to explain.

 

[erin]

@Catjbro,

Exhaustion is bad and the emotional one is worse. Don't give up, I know it's hard. You are the third person in the forum tonight, I shall be thinking and wishing you well.
It's easy to say and difficult to do, but try to concentrate healing, getting better and caring your own self. I wish all the good health to come to your way.

 

[ahmo]

I would be interested to know how you built the spiritual scaffolding. I find being in the moment nothingness right now - maybe it's the exhaustion but I lay and try and listen or look about the room and there is just a nothingness - it's hard to explain.

Not hard to understand that nothingness.

I had a meditation practice and spiritual orientation before ME. During the years since, I've had to re-build something that worked for me. A couple years ago I fell into a hole when trying to sort through boxes from my past. I needed a lot of help to get out of that hole, am linking a couple resources I found. I needed something a lot more than *it's all for a reason*, or *all is good*. I needed to find an understanding not of "why me?", but, how can I deal with this inability to be part of the world.... I found what works for me, I hope you can, too.
http://www.inner-healing.com/grief_meditation.htm

I have not listened to these 2 audio meditations.

http://thedailymeditation.com/meditaton-for-grief-how-to-overcome-grief/ 19”

http://www.fragrantheart.com/cms/free-audio-meditations/healing/grief-and-loss 25”

http://www.meditationoasis.com/podcast/listen-to-podcast/ many meditations available, including below, 20” Grief meditation

http://hwcdn.libsyn.com/p/f/e/1/fe1...49168616&hwt=f6aeeba2c86d5cd7362dce3fabe8391a 20” Grief meditation from the above, meditationoasis


http://www.wisebrain.org/tools/articles/neurodharma

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/3-reasons-to-stop-worrying-about-your-negative-thoughts/

http://www.threeprinciplesmovies.com/

http://www.tuberose.com/Conscious_Living_and_Dying.html

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/turning-straw-gold/201107/4-qualities-mind-alleviate-suffering

 

[Catjbro]

Wow I so appreciate that. I'll listen to one tonight.
Cathy