Well, I started the new year off in fine form -- crying and yelling at my husband over what I considered to be an insensitive remark. He has just discovered mindful compassion meditation -- after having criticized meditation for years. The first thing he told me when I woke up was that he thinks I am trying too hard to find answers for my health problems, and that I need to learn to accept my circumstances. This is a surprising turn of mind for him. For years he's told me he admires how I'm able to stay so positive in light of a devastating collection of neuroimmune and autoimmune illnesses, and that I never give up trying to improve my situation. The timing, of course, was especially unfortunate. Considering I'd just finished the festive season mostly housebound (out of the house only to get groceries), with not a single social event, even I was surprised at how well I accepted Christmas this year for the non-event it has become. So here's my question . . . I've been recording my heart rate/blood pressure -- lying flat before I get up in the morning, immediately after standing, and then again three minutes later. I've done this for several weeks to get baseline figures with respect to POTS. My new year's resolution is to start "pacing myself" using a heart rate monitor and timed periods of cognitive effort to see if this strategy is helpful for all of my many symptoms, including orthostatic intolerance. I realized my emotional upset this morning would have an effect on my readings, but was shocked at what happened. My heart rate didn't go up at all from the supine to standing position -- not a single beat. Usually it increases within the first minute by 28 to 50 bpm. Any ideas why crying and yelling immediately before my heart rate measurements would make it appear I don't have POTS? Maybe I should cry and yell more often!!!