Hi Well, I just have to vent a little bit. I know its something that you have all gone through and something that you have all heard before. I have always been open about my illness. I'll answer your questions. If you want to know what's going on with me, ask. We were at a function for my nieces (out of state for me) and I had done way too much. I started getting that "acting drunk and drugged out" persona. You know the one....stumbling, not making sense, off in nowhere land. One of my sisters (who has been told this MANY TIMES) said to me "We have GOT to get you off of those narcotics!". I looked at her like she had two heads because, while I knew what she was saying and how to respond the words just wouldn't come forth. A little later while we were having dinner I was picking at my plate and she said "What is WRONG with you?". My other two sisters then chimed in. Luckily my mother was there to help out with the explanations. By then I was shaking and sweating. I needed to go lay down. I excused myself and went to a guest room until we could go back to the hotel. When I found out I got my hearing date for disability through Social Security I never said anything to them. About 10 days before one of my sisters came over and I let it slip. She just looked at me and kinda gave me the "oh brother, just what you need, another reason to lay around" look. It hurts me terribly. I hear of things they are going off to do together and they never even mention inviting me -- not that I could go or would go because of their attitude. It just hurts that they don't even consider doing something that maybe I CAN do. They could say, meet here at the house, grab a movie, make some dinner and all just hang out. But everything with them is high octane. It would be a cookout for 48 people by the time they're done. Sorry ya'll. I just am sad about this. I am lucky to have a super awesome sister-in-law who does just come over and hang out. She will invite me out to eat but understands when I can't go. So I do count my blessings. I just needed to vent with people who would really get it. Thanks ya'll!