I am really struggling. I have tried for many years to overcome dealing with chronic illness and still try to work. Feeling the need to hide my dysfunction because I was fearful (people can be very mean and unsupportive) of being thrown under th bus. I realize I am not funcitoning at any where near the levels I use or need to but I am my sole support and I was trying to get through the next 2 yrs and 5 months and just take early retirement w/ healthcare. But I am not making it. My boyfirend/last local friend is very short with me. I know he doesnt understand even tho he sees what happens to me but I think he plans on moving, why be saddled with someon who is sick all the time. I have less strength to stand up for myself. I neve thought I would get to this point but I dont know what else to do. But I am scared of walking away from a job (or letting them fire me because I cant perform) when I have no other source of income. So I was wondering how many of you finally got o a point where you knew you could no longer do your job and walked away? Im looking for those who were their only source of support/income/health benefits. If you did this was it because you felt so bad you could not think of altrnatives? I really dont wnt to give up but I am so tired of the battle, daily (people and body). Tired of not improving much and worried about my future. I am looking to know if it was as bad as I am envisioning it to be or am I just afraid of a change becuase I have always worked?