I do not know if this is the right place to ask my question. I was ignorant of this predominant attitude and treatment model. I thought I must have ME, due to my symptoms. I had been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia 12 years ago and gradually became worse, with one 2-3 yr period of improvement and then a decline during the last few years, resulting in my being bedbound now. I researched, as most of you do, to determine what was happening, and found my symptoms listed in all of the diagnostic definitions of ME. I thought if I could get a diagnosis, then I might have a chance to have my illness treated. So I pushed for that, and my GP who was a new doctor, referred me to the Wareham clinic and specifically to Dr. Selwyn Richards, with the view to get a diagnosis if that is appropriate. Then after only having done a lot of blood tests, my appointment came up, without me having a clear idea of what had been eliminated and what tests have even been done. So I cancelled the appointment as I felt that I did not have adequate information, and I had already seen Dr. Richards' paper advocating sending Fibromyalgia patients for CBT and GET at a regular gym class taught by a non-specialist normal fitness instructor. His opportunistic political slant was so obvious in the document's first page, that I decided I did not want to be assessed by this man. So, I rather narrowly escaped a diagnosis that might have landed me in CBT and GET 'classes. I am alone, and have only an appointment with the Citizens Advice Bureau to help me fill out the form for renewal of my Disability Living Allowance benefit. I am terrified that my future is going to be impossible for me to survive, as my young GP has now moved away and I've been assigned to another one whose stated area of interest is 'mental health'. The senior doctor in the practice visited me 2 wks ago and prescribed an anti-depressant which I thought was going to be milnacipran, one that is used in the US for Fibromyalgia and known to help with pain. Instead he gave me Mirtazapine. I should not have, but I took one tablet which drugged me horribly for two days, and my pain was actually worse. I felt so awful and did not take another. Now I am really needing to hear from others who might have a similar situation or experience. I am living in the UK, on benefits due to inability to work. I cannot afford much in the way of carers, and so only have about 3 hrs a week, which I use to do housework, since that is the thing that helps most with me trying to conserve energy and manage pain levels. I am nowhere near being able to manage, and spend most days just trying to get through from hour to hour. My pain moves around and comes and goes, it takes a variety of forms and symptoms. Overwhelmingly I feel much worse 34 to 48 or more after any increase in activity such as sitting on my lounge chair on my balcony for 10 minutes, or having a bath, which I am only able to manage 2x a week and that is totally beyond my limits. If it were not for my pride at not wanting to smell bad, I would not do it more than 1x a week. Where can I go from here? Is there any hope at all? I am receiving all the benefits I can, but I have no other person or resource to help me. If the doctors do not and will not do anything useful, but instead try to push me toward therapy that is completely inappropriate, and if I can't even be believed when I have a real illness... then how would something like a cancer or heart disease be discovered in the future, should they arise. I am not a paranoid person, but common sense tells me that I am at a dead end and have no way out of this mess that I can see. Any help at all for someone with no money and no family or friends to help?