I don't really understand why my condition seems to be getting so much worse, and my symptoms are so unstable. I will have random periods of high cortisol/adrenaline (e.g. triggered when I introduce coconut oil, or when I started doing coffee enemas a few months ago) .. this isn't pleasant per se, but it allows me to cope and gives me the energy/wherewithal to get through the day; then, my adrenals 'crap out' -- like they did 2 days ago -- and I am left in a state that feels near-death .. breathless, weak, ears ringing, constantly hungry, can barely stand etc. Last time I got to this point, I thought it was the end, but the coffee enemas brought me back. My CFS doctor gave me some suggestions last time -- methylation, probiotics etc. -- but everything I tinkered around with seemed to make the crashes worse, and I was getting frustrated that nothing even gives me marginal relief. I think if I felt psychologically more stable, the fatigue would be something I could cope with. But I am constantly 'revved up', agitated, severely anxious etc. and don't want to keep living like this. Stool test revealed dysbiosis (high H2S-producing bacteria), and my general bloodwork shows low Vitamin D (can't tolerate supplementation), low B12, high monocytes, low iron. I have petechiae on my arms and my doctor decided to test me for Bartonella, but I was already tested a few months ago and it was negative. New symptoms including orange stools and weight loss over the past 4 days (3kg), coinciding with the increased breathlessness and weakness. It feels very surreal and scary to be trapped in such a helpless state -- I wish some doctor could just give me an answer about the symptoms like balance problems etc. I suspect a bacterial infection of some kind and plan to try the abx. my gastro prescribed (Ampicillin and Flagyl), even though my doctor didn't think it was a good idea, but what else can I do?