I got sick when I was 18, I had worked fulltime for 12 months, then left to study a diploma fulltime. I got sick one month into the diploma and despite my pushing on I just wasn't well enough to continue. My plan had been to be graduate course, live overseas for 2 years working and gaining life experience, come back have career change into ambulance service and live out my dream career. Unfortunately that obviously didn't happen!. 19 years later I still yearn for that career, I don't think I can ever let it go even though it's very unlikely that i'll ever get to do it. I find it REALLY hard to come to terms with never ever being able to work and work in my chosen career field, it feels really surreal and strange. I don't actually think my brain can get itself around such a concept because it just defies logic. Is anyone else in a similar situation? Never been able to do your chosen career and still yearning/grieving for it?. Do you feel like you have lost a part of yourself as well in not being able to fullfill that desire?.