I know life's a blessing but I'm really struggling to reconcile this disease with the way I've been striving to lead my life. I spent the first twenty years on this planet just trying to break away from embedded dysfunctional family dynamics. I put myself through University while working full time (Canadian Ivy) I went through years of counseling to make sure that the generations of problematic relationships ended with me. Then in my last year of University, with one class left to pass I came down with this enigma of a "syndrome." I'm $65,000 in debt for my education and I've tried to wrap up my degree and pass my final statistics class three times to no avail. My loans come due next month, and I don't have the faintest suggestion of what I can do to generate income without the energy reserve to cover the essentials like household chores. I'm sinking, I'm so sad. I wanted so much for my life, despite the odds stacked against me by my family background. I thought the odds were stacked due to my socioeconomic class and my abusive parents, little did I know it was going to come at me genomically as well as economically... I've tried hard to avoid self pity, I'm resilient by nature and always try to find a way to fight for a better day. But it's really challenging watching friends and former classmates go on to achieve their goals while I'm stranded on the sidelines. There's so much I have left to do, and I can't seem to find a way to do it.