This is exactly how I felt, I hate the trite and thoughtless way in which scripture is quoted to those that suffer. Like you Brenda, it does get too much to bear. I've seen this in my own life and in the life of others. I had a severely depressed Christian friend who committed suicide- obviously she had been "given" too much to cope with. Another Christian friend with CFS tells me how she barely hangs on, she thought that God told her that he would heal her. These crises throw me again and again, and I tend to re-evaluate my beliefs with every new thing that comes my way. I question and question till I get to the end of myself, and there I find God. The early church model is very attractive and I yearn for its simplicity, the real sense of community, its loving focus on people in need, the distribution of wealth (out of love and not compulsion).