Hi Hurting: Sorry you are having such a rough time. A lot of us get to the point where we want to just give up on life with this illness. Ive certanly felt that way. Because I am also blind I began to wonder what point there would be to life with CFS in addition to my other disability. But I am very glad that I did not act on those thoughts. Ive Been on a comprehensive treatment program this last year and have experienced HUGE improvements in my health. And aggressive rest therapy has been a really important part of that treatment. For me aggressive rest therapy means telling myself that my primary job in life right now is to spend my days and nights doing things that are most restful and relaxing for me and which cause me the least amount of stress. For the last year, I put everything on hold and just did those things that I absolutely had to do to survive like eating, etc. Ive spent a lot of days sprawled on my couch listening to books on tape because I find that very relaxing. But something else might work better for you. Other days I just curled up under the covers with the electric blanket on and snuggled up with my cat. I allowed myself to really take pleasure in the warmth of the bed, the comfort of knowing my cat loved me whether I was sick or healthy, and of feeling him nestled against me, and the wonderful feeling of being still and doing absolutely nothing. At night I committed to spending at least 10 to eleven hours in bed and at least 9 of those hours sleeping. I took several measures to ensure that I got as much uninterrupted, deep sleep as possible. These included 4 mg melatonin half an hour before bedtime, plus 3 or 4 capsules of an herbal sleep formula, plus a low dose of Ambien. My problem has been waking up in the night. So, to ensure I got the most rest, if I was awake more than fifteen minutes I would dissolve a quarter of a 10 mg tablet under my tongue because I find it gets into my system more quickly that way and I need less of the medication to fall asleep. But again you might need something different. The important thing is to be resting and relaxing during the day and getting as much sleep at night as possible and telling yourself this is absolutely ok and really good for you. Hope this helps and that you can find ways to be kind to yourself.