Hi Allie, That is from the Hanson-Roberts deck, I've had it since I was a teen. Once in high school, I was looking at the cards by myself, when a kid unfamiliar with Tarot came in. When I explained more or less what it was, he asked me to read for him. Using the "gypsy" technique we were talking about above, I laid out the cards and started talking. Suddenly he bolted up, furious, yelling at me about how could I know these things, what kind of horrible trick is this, etc. He didn't leave me time to explain it was *he* doing all the work (making the connections.) He stormed out really angry with me! That was my first lesson in the power of the subconscious, and how some minds keep it that way on purpose. And yes, for those of us trying to remain connected to our true selves, it takes time to relax out of the decades of habitually relying on our thoughts, feelings, and circumstances for comfort or assurance. We've had years of practice believing they defined us or would bring us comfort. Its really a moment by moment thing, and that's why we are all here together--to remind ourselves and each other continuously to return to the present moment and connect with our inner supermum We naturally stray in and out as we learn to drop the conditioning and connect to the eternal now. That's why it's so nice to wander into a "room" like this and see quite clearly my fellow companions on this path, and how easy it is to support and be supported as the tides of recognition and remembrance ebb and flow.