thanks pinky. you are so sweet! would love to talk to you more one day... i am really really sick right now. this damn azt, even at 200 mg BID, is like poison. everyday, as the stupid drug builds up in my body, i feel worse and worse and more and more toxic. this is awful! but the last time, it started to improve the CFS symptoms and i had some very good days...so i will stay on it...unless my heart starts acting weird again...which i guess it probably will. now i know what they mean by the cure being worse than the disease. i know i have said this before..but i really feel like the AZT is doing all the work. why am i bothering with the other drugs? i am thinking now for sure that i dont even have XMRV but some other polytropic thing...cuz i had my blood cultured twice (once by dr. lombardi personally), had PCR, and antibody tests...and they could NOT find any XMRV. but when this new MLV-related virus serology test came out, i was positive. WHY DONT THEY KNOW MORE AT THIS POINT???? LOOK WHAT I HAVE BECOME. DOES ANYBODY UP THERE CARE!??????????????