Every year, come winter, I crumble physically and mentally. It's been like this for 5 years now. Winter was my favorite time of year. I loved it. Now, I can't stand it. I know that as soon as January roles around, I can expect to get a respiratory infection and then have a full on crash. Therapists have said that I need to go away in the winter. I need to go to where it's warm. Well, I just tried that and I was so sick, I couldn't do it. This winter, severe insomnia has taken place and my fibromyalgia is like a moving train not wanting to stop. I am so sick. I spend my days propped up in bed. Maybe I will brush my teeth at 5 pm when I seem to have a little energy. Does anyone else have seasonal relapses and how do you deal with it? i know to expect it. I know to, but no matter how much I try to do that, it always happens and crushes me and I have severe anxiety and depression comes on in full bloom. Every winter I have suicidal thoughts. SAD. Also, Vitamin D scares me. I feel like it could make my sleep worse. How does one deal with knowing they will crash for months? Are you able to put perspective on it? How do you make it through, because I am never used to this. I anticipate it, but when it happens and really gets worse, I come undone.