On thursday I watched a ducumentary called "We Were Here". It's about the HIV epidemic, mostly in the 80's, at San-Francisco, among gay men. It contains the story of 5 people - 4 of them are gay men who had wittnessed the epidemic from close because their friends and their lovers, and sometimes even themselves, became infected with HIV. They experienced many deaths of a loved one. The fifth is a woman who was a nurse and assisted the sick-ones from close, in a period in history were many didn't want to get anywhere near an AIDS patient. This movie is VERY moving. At some parts of it I almost cried. I had tears in my eyes. In fact, I have to say that it made me pretty much depressed. I don't know if it was a good idea for me to watch that movie. But I still write to you about it, in part because I think everyone should decide for himself whether to watch it or not. Here is the link to the only website in which I found the movie online (it's a website in Hebrew, but the film is in English. I hope it works outside of Israel): http://yes.walla.co.il/?w=2/7827/1831622 I think that among the numerous touching parts in that movie, the most moving part for me was the part that's between minutes 21:36 and 23:20. What they talk about in that part is not relevant to what was moving for me. What was moving for me was the video: You can see a young and hansome guy there, in the orange shirt... And he is being checked by the doctor. And though he does not look very sick (though I don't know if he was sick or not, and to what degree he was sick if he was), he looks absolutely desperate. His boyfriend tries to console him, shows him his affection, but that guy looks like he knows that soon he will be gone. And he did, at the age of 22. You sometimes imagine to yourself those hero people who knows that they are going to die but they don't really care, they are strong for everyone else. But what's bringing tears to my eyes as I write this is those videos of that guy, who looks so so sad knowing that he is going to die. He wants to live many more years, but he knows that he is about to die. It's making him so sad. It's making me so sad, today - about 25 years after he died, and I didn't even know him. But it's the situation, the helplesness of you, and as important of your loved ones, that I can relate to. It's stronger than anything. In the movie you can see that the name of that 22-year-old guy is Todd Coleman. I searched his name and found out that there was a documentary done about him, called "Living With AIDS" (1987). It describes the last weeks of his life. I couldn't find a link to watch this movie online. I even didn't find it in Emule. So, for now, I wasn't able to watch it. But I guess that the videos of Todd that are in the movie "We Were Here" were probably taken from that documentary, "Living With AIDS". Here is a discription of that movie: http://www.pbs.org/pov/livingwithaids/film_description.php If any of you would find a way to watch it, I'll be glad if you would tell us how. I mean, it would probably make me even more sad and depressed, but at the same time I feel that I must watch it.