I am wondering if anyone has experienced this it's called "scruplosity" (spelling)
I am experiencing very bad mental problems involving my faith at the moment. I don't know what is wrong with me but I believe it's related to my mental health. One second loving God, being obsessed, not being interested..bla bla bla I don't know what to do. I don't feel like I love God. I'm all over the place spiritually. I do pray every day. But feel as if I'm two different people God believer/don't believe in God and maybe more. It's been crazy the past month with my health issues.
Yes. For about two weeks I was insanely OCD. I remember one night I was tossing and turning from the thoughts and compulsions that everything I did was wrong. I was fighting it and it was only relieved when I did the thing in question (brush my teeth..). I started taking lorazepam which has helped that and haven't had it since but still don't feel spiritually "well".
Yes, my dad had this exact same thing. For him it was a symptom of OCD. You can have either OCD which is just anxiety provoking thoughts, or OCD in which the thoughts are relieved by actions.
For example, the classic OCD thing is to be afraid of germs, which is relieved by repetitive hand washing.
I've also had OCD thoughts in which I would get intrusive scary thoughts about death. I still get them from time to time but they're mild and I've learned to manage them. The main thing is to not take them seriously. Then redirect your attention to something else.
If it continues and is very bothersome, I would suggest finding a therapist who specializes in OCD. I've done this and it was very helpful.
The other thing is you might be low in serotonin. 5htp works well for me. One in the evening is sufficient if I'm having extra trouble.
As far as if you have to go on a medication, the usual thing is to prescribe an SSRI and possibly also a benzodiazepam. I've been on these. They're both very addictive and have numerous sided effects. My suggestion would be to avoid these if possible, but if you have no other choice, try them. Nowadays, there is now a gene test you can take to see which psych medications you can tolerate before you take them, so look for that. It would no doubt save you a lot of trouble and expense trying out medications.
I had a horrendous withdrawal syndrome trying to come off Zoloft too fast which triggered my OCD. That lasted the better part of a year. I call it my "lost year".
I'm now 3 years in to a very slow 5 year taper off Zoloft, which shows you how addictive and hard it can be to get off SSRIs for some people. Doctors don't tell you this. For a benzo figure at least 6 months to get back off. For some sensitive people, it might be years. I think most people just stay on them for life.
If you're already on an SSRI or SNRI, it might be "pooping out" and that can cause withdrawal symptoms which includes OCD.
Benzos can cause rebound anxiety as they wear out of your system. If you're on these, you might need to switch to a longer acting variety and/or take them more often to keep the level of medication at an even keel.
