My white blood cell counts have been overly high since i first fell ill with ME last year, i had four courses of antibiotics and i recovered by september.
I fell ill again this year, and havent been able to get back to even a reduced rate of functioning health, ive had two chest infections in the time ive been
ill, my GP would only give me a 10 day course this year, and i dont think its helped.
Because im so fatigued, i cant cough properly, i literally dont seem to have that reflex anymore, its as if my lungs and breathing muscles havent got the energy to cough.
With me being still so often, im sure this is making things worse.
I tried to do some walking in the house, but this makes my breathing and fatigue worse to the point of collapse.
My breathing problems went away after my first bout of ME last year, so it MUST be connected to this relapse.
I have felt the 'air hunger' people describe, but that not all for me, i have to concentrate on taking shallow breaths, if i dont, i seem to stop breathing.
Ive been told by doctors its impossible to stop breathing, but they havent been in my shoes, when its at its worst, if i didnt really concentrate on it, i would stop.
So for me, the act of moving my chest is the problem, i cannot take deep breathes and i cannot blow air back out (i cant take lung capacity tests on the blow meter because i simply cannot blow out the way they ask me too, i just dont have the breath).
However, most times, my blood oxygen level is fine, so they say my lung capacity is ok.
This is so frustrating. I feel like im banging my head against a brick wall.