Ema
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I got a random email offering a special bundled price for the Wild Divine biofeedback computer package. I'd looked at this a few times over the past few years and decided it was a sign that it was time.
I'd just the day before been thinking that I needed to learn to try to have better control over my breathing and nervous system responses.
So I bought it.
And since then, it's been nothing but problems.
The finger sensors wouldn't work at first...turns out that Mac has an "App Nap" which turns off low powered devices every 60 seconds or so. So that box had to be unchecked in the options...of course no mention of this certainly common problem in the setup instructions.
I "played" the first game...and it is boring as all meditation is for me. One of the objectives was to steady your internal breathing to allow some rocks to stack on top of one another. I sat there and steadied my breathing for what felt like hours and NOTHING. So I started reading my email on my phone (with the finger sensors still attached) and darn it if those rocks didn't all start stacking up. Are you kidding me??
What does that mean? Reading my email steadies my nervous system? Hardly.
The graphics look very basic. I know that's not the point...the point is the meditation exercises. But as someone who has worked extensively with architectural 3D renderings, I know exactly what is possible...and this is elementary school work with a PhD price tag.
So this morning, I loaded up their newest offering which is a "true" 3D game supposedly with no preset paths. I can't make this work AT ALL. I can't even get to the first step after screwing around with it for almost 2 hours.
I've sent them several emails already and not gotten much help from their technical support people. The directions (or lack thereof) are a real problem.
I need to know what I'm supposed to be doing or what is supposed to be happening...or maybe that is what I'm supposed to be learning? That I should be going with the flow? But it all feels so pointless that way! I need a goal...and objectives! At least markers to know I'm heading in the right direction...
I don't know. Maybe there is an existential lesson here after all. I was just not prepared to fail at my meditation program.
Now I need to go look for a Primal Scream lesson...
I'd just the day before been thinking that I needed to learn to try to have better control over my breathing and nervous system responses.
So I bought it.
And since then, it's been nothing but problems.
The finger sensors wouldn't work at first...turns out that Mac has an "App Nap" which turns off low powered devices every 60 seconds or so. So that box had to be unchecked in the options...of course no mention of this certainly common problem in the setup instructions.
I "played" the first game...and it is boring as all meditation is for me. One of the objectives was to steady your internal breathing to allow some rocks to stack on top of one another. I sat there and steadied my breathing for what felt like hours and NOTHING. So I started reading my email on my phone (with the finger sensors still attached) and darn it if those rocks didn't all start stacking up. Are you kidding me??
What does that mean? Reading my email steadies my nervous system? Hardly.
The graphics look very basic. I know that's not the point...the point is the meditation exercises. But as someone who has worked extensively with architectural 3D renderings, I know exactly what is possible...and this is elementary school work with a PhD price tag.
So this morning, I loaded up their newest offering which is a "true" 3D game supposedly with no preset paths. I can't make this work AT ALL. I can't even get to the first step after screwing around with it for almost 2 hours.
I've sent them several emails already and not gotten much help from their technical support people. The directions (or lack thereof) are a real problem.
I need to know what I'm supposed to be doing or what is supposed to be happening...or maybe that is what I'm supposed to be learning? That I should be going with the flow? But it all feels so pointless that way! I need a goal...and objectives! At least markers to know I'm heading in the right direction...
I don't know. Maybe there is an existential lesson here after all. I was just not prepared to fail at my meditation program.
Now I need to go look for a Primal Scream lesson...