Today, I got hit with an electric bill from the place I live at. They had given me a letter over the summer that I didn't have to pay anything for those months, but apparently, they screwed up. So I got hit with a bill. I did put away money toward the electric, but when they said I wouldn't have to pay, I was then going to use it for my car inspection. So now, I don't know if I can pay to get the car inspected yet. I might be able to do it this one last time if the car doesn't need anything major. Otherwise, I'll be out the car, too.
I spent an hour crying after I got the bill, and then I called Comcast. I have an appointment for them to pickup the cable boxes next week. And there won't be any tv service to my home anymore. I can't afford it, not with this bill. The place I was living at before this, the electric was included in the rent. There were no surprises. I didn't know this place would be more expensive. I did ask, they just refused to tell me anything each time I did.
I'm just really upset. I can't manage on the small disability check at all. I was able to manage at my old place, but not here. I'm paying in spades for the peace, quiet and safety I have now.
This is what happens when you are too sick to work. You lose every single thing in your life, one piece at a time.
I can watch stuff over the net. I won't die. I watch most things online now anyway. But just losing something I've had my whole life and something most people take for granted, you know. That's what hurts.
I don't know how much more I can take. The loses don't seem to end. And I really am not well enough to function in this world.
No More TV at My House
Blog entry posted by Carrigon, Dec 29, 2011.