The first two months of 2014 I tumbled into a depression.
It was very bad. By the end of February I was suicidal.
I knew it was chemically caused but could not figure out by what. Progesterone, Lithium, Omega3, stopping with Methylation, nothing helped.
Knowing it had a chemical cause was not enough to keep me sane or wanting to be alive. The mind is no match for emotions. It was shear stubbornness that kept me alive.
Days before I was to have myself committed I upped my vit D.
45 minutes later the depression lifted.
I felt so betrayed.
Afterwards it's logical:
- methylation eats vit D
- Winter eats vit D
- my levels were already fragile due to one receptor being busted (VDR Taq)
- I had halved my dose in October because doctor said so
- vit D is a hormone and has functions all over the body, especially the brain
- vit D is involved in uptake of nutrients, signalling of the neurons and everyting
recommended bloodlevels for vitamine D3 are 60 to 80
for me, bloodlevels should probably be higher. I now supplement to symptoms.
MS people aim for levels as high as 100
Not all depressions get caused by lack of a hormone or vitamine. Probably most aren't. But mine was. Perhaps it helps another ill person. vitD is crucial for ME/CFS people.
I am still very angry this happened to me. Mostly my self esteem is bruised, I thought I was smarter than this. :s
Of course it takes weeks to recuperate from this roller coaster. grrrr.
I took a daily dose of 25 mcg (=1000 IU) and got the shortage. I fixed it with temporarily daily dose of 75 mcg (=3000 IU)
Now my daily maintenance dose is 50 mcg (2000 IU)
I stopped methylation for the time being
story in longer sentences at http://marvellogic.wordpress.com/2014/03/20/when-feelings-are-lies/
low vit.D = depression (in me)
Blog entry posted by WoolPippi, Mar 20, 2014.