So I have been soooo sick since Friday, basically on crashed mode like when I started at the beginning of the year (my major crash).
I got a cold or something still haven't figure out, not sure if it was a CFS relapse or a bug and just made CFS worse. Is scary that u can be doing so well and just a bug drag u back sooo much. So that kinda freaked me out. Is it me doing better just an illusion of comfort that can be gone in a minute, just like that? Scary.
I have passed out about 3 times in the last few days (nobody noticed thank God), Brushing my teeth is a chore, I have gone w/o a shower to work because I cannot take a shower and get dressed on the same time frame. Work is very busy but how do I explain how I have gone stupid all of the sudden or cant walk because I can pass out any minute, It is to the point that I am sitting on the hallways and people just jump through me. I am afraid they are going to can me eventually.
It has been rough, I also missed my Florinef dose. I can't keep things straight this days, I am making a lot of mistakes and forgetting things. I started heavy on pedyalite (electrolyte) my secret weapon for crashes, see how I do if I can get out soon.
This crash is different hard to explain, even though I feel w a bug, is not as CFSy as the others, Feels more OIsy than CFSy. Muscle fatigue, Brain is MIA, Droping things, CANNOT hold anything because I let go. Words retrieval, "I do this thing that does the thing...Pass me the thing that has the thing...." Cannot even get point across. I wanted to make sure I document this crash because was somewhat different and brutal and fast and furious.
Now I have to go and pay for the typing I just did!!!
Blog entry posted by lnester7, Oct 31, 2012.